[ It takes a few minutes before the response comes back. He's not trying to avoid talking to Al, but...how does he explain it? ]
I don't know. I haven't been automatically moving to violence. I did my best to avoid hurting anyone last night, even though no one would've blamed me. I realized my mistake with Mohinder as it was happening. I want to figure out what's going on here, but it's not as overwhelming as it would probably have been back home.
That urge- I think my original ability had a side effect. My ability told me how to fix something so it would work properly, perfectly, but that'd be the only information I'd get. I had to know more. I always needed the full explanation. When I understood an ability fully, I could make it mine. I killed my first victim without even thinking about it, took his telekinesis, and only then realized what I'd done. Up till that point, the only important thing was to learn what was already known, at all costs. It felt right, it felt like what I was always meant to do. Like destiny.
I'd gotten used to that need always being at the forefront of my mind. I knew something was off here, but I thought it was something else. I didn't notice what I was missing until I saw it in other people last night. I didn't think I was out of my own control before.
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I don't know. I haven't been automatically moving to violence. I did my best to avoid hurting anyone last night, even though no one would've blamed me. I realized my mistake with Mohinder as it was happening. I want to figure out what's going on here, but it's not as overwhelming as it would probably have been back home.
That urge- I think my original ability had a side effect. My ability told me how to fix something so it would work properly, perfectly, but that'd be the only information I'd get. I had to know more. I always needed the full explanation. When I understood an ability fully, I could make it mine. I killed my first victim without even thinking about it, took his telekinesis, and only then realized what I'd done. Up till that point, the only important thing was to learn what was already known, at all costs. It felt right, it felt like what I was always meant to do. Like destiny.
I'd gotten used to that need always being at the forefront of my mind. I knew something was off here, but I thought it was something else. I didn't notice what I was missing until I saw it in other people last night. I didn't think I was out of my own control before.