[ He has to laugh at that- god, what a mess this was. ]

There? Maybe I'm starting to notice some issues. It's a little more obvious what the problem is here, especially with all this new, wonderful context.

I tried to reform back home. And trusted the wrong people to help, as usual. Two of 'em are dead now.

[ There's a pause as he rubs at his face. ]

I feel more out of control than ever. So not so much, as far as resolving the problem goes.