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[ It takes longer for him to answer between the conversation here and with Alfie. Things are hitting way too close to home for his liking. ]
Why do you care?
Why do you care?
I'll be back there once I return to my world.
[ He feels mixed about that. He's normal here. He's not in constant pain and he may even count as whole. He also misses Ventus. He hates him, wants to end him, but also misses the link they shared. It meant there was always something even during the most miserable of times.
This conversation and the one with Alfie is hitting too close to things he really didn't want out. ]
I don't want to talk about it.
This conversation and the one with Alfie is hitting too close to things he really didn't want out. ]
I don't want to talk about it.
Pretty sure you're gonna regret giving me that much leeway.
Talk to you later, buddy.
[ He could practically feel Vanitas being stretched to his limit, so he'll give him a little space to process. For now. Honestly, they could all use a little space to process, here. ]
Talk to you later, buddy.
[ He could practically feel Vanitas being stretched to his limit, so he'll give him a little space to process. For now. Honestly, they could all use a little space to process, here. ]
It's just 279. But it's been more than a few days, so I figured it might be awhile. And if you don't know what it is yet, it's probably mental. I'll let you know if you do anything strange on my end. You are sounding okay so far.
I was going to head out for Alfie tomorrow- we'd been waiting, but I didn't want him to travel on his own too long. He's been pretty rough, as you might expect. Having you back will help.
I was going to head out for Alfie tomorrow- we'd been waiting, but I didn't want him to travel on his own too long. He's been pretty rough, as you might expect. Having you back will help.
I made him promise he wouldn't be alone.
[ Just - give him a second. It's 279. That's... five days? Four days. He can't remember much of dying, in a haze for most of the day he died. He curls up a little more tightly. ]
I'll go to him as soon as I can. Spoke to him already.
[ Just - give him a second. It's 279. That's... five days? Four days. He can't remember much of dying, in a haze for most of the day he died. He curls up a little more tightly. ]
I'll go to him as soon as I can. Spoke to him already.
Good. I figured you would have. I wanted to make sure he'd be around when you came back. But I think he's been traveling with Quark for the time being, at least.
Any of that MN poisoning have the decency to leave you alone, at least? I guess that'd be asking too much of this place, but doesn't hurt to ask. I think the mania's gotten worse on this end- it's like you said. I can't focus, so it's starting to become a problem.
Any of that MN poisoning have the decency to leave you alone, at least? I guess that'd be asking too much of this place, but doesn't hurt to ask. I think the mania's gotten worse on this end- it's like you said. I can't focus, so it's starting to become a problem.
The obsession with blood isn't there anymore. [ Royce mumbles. ] I'm still numb.
Pacing helped the mania. When I had it. Find something that takes up a lot of time to do and requires a lot of focus. Something important. Sewing. Sorting supplies. Things like that.
Pacing helped the mania. When I had it. Find something that takes up a lot of time to do and requires a lot of focus. Something important. Sewing. Sorting supplies. Things like that.
You had an obsession with blood? [ Yikes. ] Well, good that's gone, at least. You're one of the unluckiest guys with MN poisoning, you know? Ouch.
Pacing's good, I've been doing some of that. I didn't think about doing something to hold my focus. Maybe I oughta learn to sew properly. Wish I had proper tools to work on watches, though. That could hold me a little better. But yeah, I'll start doing that sort of thing.
Do you and Alfie have any plans, once you meet up?
Pacing's good, I've been doing some of that. I didn't think about doing something to hold my focus. Maybe I oughta learn to sew properly. Wish I had proper tools to work on watches, though. That could hold me a little better. But yeah, I'll start doing that sort of thing.
Do you and Alfie have any plans, once you meet up?
Yes. It killed me.
[ Oops. He didn't - exactly want to say that, but. He's quiet for a couple of seconds. ]
If you need ideas, ask. I'll find something. [ He's trying very hard to sound steady. ] And no. I don't know. Nothing matters. There isn't any point to plans.
[ Oops. He didn't - exactly want to say that, but. He's quiet for a couple of seconds. ]
If you need ideas, ask. I'll find something. [ He's trying very hard to sound steady. ] And no. I don't know. Nothing matters. There isn't any point to plans.
[ The admission and the pause have Gabriel thinking over the whole conversation. When he does speak, it's deliberately a little slower than he's gotten used to speaking. ]
Are you saying more than you want to be right now? If so, I think we might've found your death loss.
Are you saying more than you want to be right now? If so, I think we might've found your death loss.
[ Gabriel lets out a heavy breath at that one. ]
Damn. Okay. I'm not going to ask you anything else, not until it's over with.
But seriously- pretty sure you know this, but the 'nothing matters' thing is the MN poisoning trying to trick you. You've got to keep yourself alive, at least. I care if you go. Alfie cares if you go. I know there's other people here that you talk to- pretty sure they care too. Give that depression the middle finger and don't give into it. Easier said than done, I know.
If you guys need a direction once you meet, I'll be happy to give you one.
Damn. Okay. I'm not going to ask you anything else, not until it's over with.
But seriously- pretty sure you know this, but the 'nothing matters' thing is the MN poisoning trying to trick you. You've got to keep yourself alive, at least. I care if you go. Alfie cares if you go. I know there's other people here that you talk to- pretty sure they care too. Give that depression the middle finger and don't give into it. Easier said than done, I know.
If you guys need a direction once you meet, I'll be happy to give you one.
[ That's actually a huge relief, Royce, thank you. Gabriel's shoulders relax a little. ]
Yeah. I get that. Don't worry about anything else, then. Just get supplies and stay alive. Maybe stick around the hot water or something. We can play more of that 2 Truths and a Lie to pass time during the days. That depression has to go at some point.
Hopefully soon, after we're all out of here. I've been heading west in this new area, using the high school as a home base. Can't see anything past the damn fog, but the center of town has to be that way. Or northwest. I'd like to hit a house at some point- trying to sleep in that school's even more pointless than usual.
Yeah. I get that. Don't worry about anything else, then. Just get supplies and stay alive. Maybe stick around the hot water or something. We can play more of that 2 Truths and a Lie to pass time during the days. That depression has to go at some point.
Hopefully soon, after we're all out of here. I've been heading west in this new area, using the high school as a home base. Can't see anything past the damn fog, but the center of town has to be that way. Or northwest. I'd like to hit a house at some point- trying to sleep in that school's even more pointless than usual.
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