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You're not going to now? Really?
Yeah, we're clear. Sorry to disappoint you like this.
[ He doesn't say sorry often, not even when he's fully acting a part. But he doesn't even feel like himself right now. Jumbled pieces of Sylar and Gabriel and everyone he's ever pretended to be seem to be swirling inside of him and bumping into each other. He can feel the regret lapping at his feet, threatening a wave to overwhelm him, and maybe recognizing this much would hold it at bay for awhile. ]
Yeah, we're clear. Sorry to disappoint you like this.
[ He doesn't say sorry often, not even when he's fully acting a part. But he doesn't even feel like himself right now. Jumbled pieces of Sylar and Gabriel and everyone he's ever pretended to be seem to be swirling inside of him and bumping into each other. He can feel the regret lapping at his feet, threatening a wave to overwhelm him, and maybe recognizing this much would hold it at bay for awhile. ]
[It confuses him so much to be apologised to for something like this, and he really isn't in any state of mind right now to sort through the minefield of potentially feeling sorry for someone who's murdered others.]
I don't know how much right I have to be disappointed right now.
I don't know how much right I have to be disappointed right now.
Yeah. I do.
I saw it from the outside last night, I think. And from what I could tell, none of you had a chance. It pressed hard enough that it was integrated into your own thought process. It was feeding you lines and telling you they were your own.
I had thought what I'd done was what I wanted, that I'd changed my mind. But now I don't know if I was just fooling myself, if I should've held on longer. Things have been different here. I've been different.
I saw it from the outside last night, I think. And from what I could tell, none of you had a chance. It pressed hard enough that it was integrated into your own thought process. It was feeding you lines and telling you they were your own.
I had thought what I'd done was what I wanted, that I'd changed my mind. But now I don't know if I was just fooling myself, if I should've held on longer. Things have been different here. I've been different.
Edited 2016-12-06 21:11 (UTC)
[ It takes a few minutes before the response comes back. He's not trying to avoid talking to Al, but...how does he explain it? ]
I don't know. I haven't been automatically moving to violence. I did my best to avoid hurting anyone last night, even though no one would've blamed me. I realized my mistake with Mohinder as it was happening. I want to figure out what's going on here, but it's not as overwhelming as it would probably have been back home.
That urge- I think my original ability had a side effect. My ability told me how to fix something so it would work properly, perfectly, but that'd be the only information I'd get. I had to know more. I always needed the full explanation. When I understood an ability fully, I could make it mine. I killed my first victim without even thinking about it, took his telekinesis, and only then realized what I'd done. Up till that point, the only important thing was to learn what was already known, at all costs. It felt right, it felt like what I was always meant to do. Like destiny.
I'd gotten used to that need always being at the forefront of my mind. I knew something was off here, but I thought it was something else. I didn't notice what I was missing until I saw it in other people last night. I didn't think I was out of my own control before.
I don't know. I haven't been automatically moving to violence. I did my best to avoid hurting anyone last night, even though no one would've blamed me. I realized my mistake with Mohinder as it was happening. I want to figure out what's going on here, but it's not as overwhelming as it would probably have been back home.
That urge- I think my original ability had a side effect. My ability told me how to fix something so it would work properly, perfectly, but that'd be the only information I'd get. I had to know more. I always needed the full explanation. When I understood an ability fully, I could make it mine. I killed my first victim without even thinking about it, took his telekinesis, and only then realized what I'd done. Up till that point, the only important thing was to learn what was already known, at all costs. It felt right, it felt like what I was always meant to do. Like destiny.
I'd gotten used to that need always being at the forefront of my mind. I knew something was off here, but I thought it was something else. I didn't notice what I was missing until I saw it in other people last night. I didn't think I was out of my own control before.
[There's no clean cut and dry answer, but Al's used to that. So many things have huge grey areas and a line of morality that's so blurred it's almost invisible. He still doesn't know whether that makes Gabriel accountable for what he did or whether it absolves him somewhat because of a loss of control.
He reads through the whole thing four times, but he's still hardly closer to figuring out a proper response, he needs to ask more.]
Do you want to make amends now? Do you want to make up for what you've done?
He reads through the whole thing four times, but he's still hardly closer to figuring out a proper response, he needs to ask more.]
Do you want to make amends now? Do you want to make up for what you've done?
[Wait here, John has said. Wait here, guard the Joker, and he will be back tomorrow after he's taken care of a blood transfusion.
If Sherlock heard the order, it's already forgotten, because he's dressed to go out pretty soon after John has gone, gesturing for Gabriel to follow.]
Come with me.
If Sherlock heard the order, it's already forgotten, because he's dressed to go out pretty soon after John has gone, gesturing for Gabriel to follow.]
Come with me.
I don't understand you.
[ All those times he told Al he was amazed by and envied his optimism were the truth, to some extent. He didn't think it was possible, that someone could be so determined and still so...good. He thought Al had to be lying somewhere. And while this offer to help still makes him think something's up, he's not automatically assuming Al wants something out of it. Other than maybe his own redemption. Maybe, just maybe, Al doesn't want to use him. ]
Thank you.
[ Another thing he almost never says. He wonders if he'll regret this tomorrow. ]
[ All those times he told Al he was amazed by and envied his optimism were the truth, to some extent. He didn't think it was possible, that someone could be so determined and still so...good. He thought Al had to be lying somewhere. And while this offer to help still makes him think something's up, he's not automatically assuming Al wants something out of it. Other than maybe his own redemption. Maybe, just maybe, Al doesn't want to use him. ]
Thank you.
[ Another thing he almost never says. He wonders if he'll regret this tomorrow. ]
Didn't John want us to stay here? Keep an eye on the Joker?
[ He's already pulling on his baseball cap, though. The questions are mostly a formality, so that he can tell John that he asked and Sherlock ignored him, or insulted him, or whatever he was going to do. The decision was made. ]
Where are we going?
[ He's already pulling on his baseball cap, though. The questions are mostly a formality, so that he can tell John that he asked and Sherlock ignored him, or insulted him, or whatever he was going to do. The decision was made. ]
Where are we going?
To the chapel.
[He completely ignores the comments about what John wanted, because there are more important things right now.]
I have a theory that needs testing, and it requires two people to do it. In this particular circumstance, you are the ideal second person.
[He completely ignores the comments about what John wanted, because there are more important things right now.]
I have a theory that needs testing, and it requires two people to do it. In this particular circumstance, you are the ideal second person.
[ Well, he asked. John can't say he didn't. As to the where, Sylar raises an eyebrow. ]
Because I can die and no one will care.
[ It's not quite as flattering as the way Sherlock was wording it, but hey- at least he's needed for something. And if they figure out something new? He's in. He finishes getting his things situation and flexes his fingers in his gloves. ]
What's the theory?
Because I can die and no one will care.
[ It's not quite as flattering as the way Sherlock was wording it, but hey- at least he's needed for something. And if they figure out something new? He's in. He finishes getting his things situation and flexes his fingers in his gloves. ]
What's the theory?
[He learned a long time ago that things are very rarely simple, very rarely black and white.
He and Ed committed an atrocity, a sin that everyone should hate them for, but nobody did and they had not done it with cruel intentions. They have allies in Scar and Greed, both men who have killed, but both men with reasons and complexities that go beyond just their actions.
He can't ever condone what Gabriel has done, but perhaps he can help him move forwards to a better future.]
What are friends for?
[He'll never get better if someone doesn't extend the hand of friendship.]
He and Ed committed an atrocity, a sin that everyone should hate them for, but nobody did and they had not done it with cruel intentions. They have allies in Scar and Greed, both men who have killed, but both men with reasons and complexities that go beyond just their actions.
He can't ever condone what Gabriel has done, but perhaps he can help him move forwards to a better future.]
What are friends for?
[He'll never get better if someone doesn't extend the hand of friendship.]
[This is one of the things he appreciates about Gabriel, he's unflinching in the face of his role in this scenario and is willing to take that risk for science.]
I hope that neither of us will die; but yes, if that's the case, you are more expendable than John.
[Murderer versus trained doctor? Even without the sentiment, there's no contest.]
Several people have attempted to stay the night in the morgues before, and most have died. It seems that a person stands a better chance of survival if they are restrained and in a group of more than one. I hypothesise that the deaths are caused by some sort of guard creature which is released after dark, most likely a modified anomaly, and the eye app will work as a deterrent. Combining the three - restraint, group, and app, there's a strong chance that at least one of us will survive to observe exactly how the morgue drawers open and what's inside.
I hope that neither of us will die; but yes, if that's the case, you are more expendable than John.
[Murderer versus trained doctor? Even without the sentiment, there's no contest.]
Several people have attempted to stay the night in the morgues before, and most have died. It seems that a person stands a better chance of survival if they are restrained and in a group of more than one. I hypothesise that the deaths are caused by some sort of guard creature which is released after dark, most likely a modified anomaly, and the eye app will work as a deterrent. Combining the three - restraint, group, and app, there's a strong chance that at least one of us will survive to observe exactly how the morgue drawers open and what's inside.
[ That hits him harder than he expects. Even after this whole conversation, would Al go that far? Just because Sylar said he wanted to do the impossible? ]
I wouldn't know. I don't think I'd ever had a real one.
I'm going to try and understand this. And I won't hurt anyone, not just to keep myself off the list. If I was being controlled in some way, I don't want to fall into that again.
[ This is a promise he'll fail almost immediately, considering Sherlock's goading. But with how poorly that goes, and his obvious lack of control, he'll keep it in mind for the future. ]
I wouldn't know. I don't think I'd ever had a real one.
I'm going to try and understand this. And I won't hurt anyone, not just to keep myself off the list. If I was being controlled in some way, I don't want to fall into that again.
[ This is a promise he'll fail almost immediately, considering Sherlock's goading. But with how poorly that goes, and his obvious lack of control, he'll keep it in mind for the future. ]
[ Sylar finds himself nodding along with the theory. They do stand a better chance together than House did alone. Speaking of... ]
You've seen the videos House took from his morgue experiments? The ones that got edited down so they don't break the tablets? [ He's guessing so. ]
You should find a corner, once we're locked in. If I'm front and center, I might distract the guard long enough that it'll leave you alone.
[ He's not harboring any delusions of getting out of this alive. ]
You've seen the videos House took from his morgue experiments? The ones that got edited down so they don't break the tablets? [ He's guessing so. ]
You should find a corner, once we're locked in. If I'm front and center, I might distract the guard long enough that it'll leave you alone.
[ He's not harboring any delusions of getting out of this alive. ]
[He nods. It's already something he's thought of after analysing those videos, but it's good that Gabriel is thinking clearly too.]
We'll contact Greg when we're there to see if he can send you a copy of the eye app too, that will give you a better chance of survival. Not to mention that double the apps may confuse and damage the guard further.
We'll contact Greg when we're there to see if he can send you a copy of the eye app too, that will give you a better chance of survival. Not to mention that double the apps may confuse and damage the guard further.
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