Okay, so you need to stick with anyone you run into. I mean, unless it's the Joker. Don't stick with him. But that's a pretty high traffic area, you should run into someone before too long.
[ He wants to double back, pick Royce up, but they'd made Steph wait too long already. He's not going to try to argue the point with Al. ]
You still coming out this way, or you waiting a few days for Alfie to come back?
Hey, I know you don't like traveling with people, but right now? You're probably the biggest danger to yourself. So suck it up and travel with somebody. I'm not losing the second friend I've ever made to MN Poisoning.
[ Just telling it like it is. And those warning bells go off for sure, hearing that last little bit. ]
House, the guy you hate with a passion? What are you doing for him?
[ He is mad, because he doesn't know what the feeling is that's choking up his throat. ]
Tell him no. Tell him you changed your mind, because that's not how it goes.
I did a morgue experiment with Sherlock awhile ago. You want to know how 'useful' we were? You want to know what waits for you there? You're going to see your daughter as an anomaly. It's going to come out of the wall, all twisted and in pain, and it'll eat you. And you're going to learn nothing, and maybe you'll come back.
House is literally insane right now. Don't- don't you dare listen to him.
There's a long pause, where Royce just breathes harshly on the other side of the line. There's a lot in him that's trying to rise up, but he can't feel anything. It's all numbed out. He should feel horrified that he might see his daughter as anomaly, but he doesn't. He shouldn't want to push this so he feels anything at all, but he sort of does. Don't listen to House. You wouldn't, normally, Royce tells himself. Normally, you'd tell House to go fuck himself.
But he volunteered. And he wants - he thinks he doesn't want to be here anymore, he really doesn't. Maybe he won't come back. Alfie's gone right now. Maybe he won't either. ]
He would tell me to do this whether he was insane or not. Makes no difference.
[ This is the same feeling he had when Mohinder threatened to expose him. Thankfully, there's no sudden desire to strangle Royce into agreeing with him, that would be entirely counterproductive, but he still doesn't know what to do. ]
That's not the point!
If you die and Alfie comes back, what's the point of that? You're not going to be useful with this. It's not going to be what you want. You'll just come back with a death loss. And if you don't come back, how are you going to see your daughter again?
This is MN Poisoning. It will go away. Stop being such an idiot.
[ The thing is, Sylar makes a good point. Royce knows. He knows he shouldn't, and really - stop being an idiot is what sticks the most. It's the poisoning, and he shouldn't indulge it. He takes a deep breath. ]
Nothing matters. [ He mumbles. ] It's hard to tell what does. I just need to hear a reminder.
[ He turns his face into his pillow for a long moment. ]
I won't. [ For right now, the idea doesn't seem as appealing. ] Wasn't really looking for death. Just trying to figure out something to do with myself.
Well, I'm telling you right now. Find someone and stay with them. Get someone you don't mind to come find you. In that order. And if you need more to do after that, shuttle food and supplies east.
You've got to hang on until the depression wears off, just like the mania did. Don't let it control you, right?
[ Everything in him is resisting finding someone to travel with. He can wait for Karkat and Davesprite, but they're far. ]
I don't want to travel with anybody close by. [ Period. There's a long pause. Alfie had all the supplies. But - maybe he can do food. He's going in that direction. Don't let the depression control you. Royce's breath catches slightly. ]
The night all of us spent in the same house, not too long ago. With Alphonse. Do you know what I said to Solomons?
[ He's about to argue the point of staying with someone- he's not going to feel okay about not meeting up with Royce until someone else is there. But Royce asks him the question before he has a chance to make a big deal out of it. ]
I said I was going to leave him to get eaten by an anomaly if he didn't try to make sure he was taking care of his back. [ It sticks. It sticks really hard in his head. It was a joke, but still. ]
[ Oh man, Royce...Sylar looks a little like a deer in headlights and eventually sighs and chews on his lip. ]
It was a joke. You're allowed to joke, you know. Alfie wouldn't have thought anything of it, other than you trying to lighten things up. Right? So it doesn't mean anything.
Yeah. Okay. [ Royce thinks, for a moment. ] I still see him. He's a king, now. On the other side of the river, but - I still see him.
He was a knight, once. Or he pretended to be one. He was trying to rescue someone. He got caught, and they forced him into being a knight so that he could kill someone they wanted dead during a joust.
[ That's the super abbreviated version, but he figures he'll get asked questions. ]
[ There was a lot to unpack from all of that. Sylar's eyebrows raise. ]
He's a king? Sounds like a big promotion from being 'patsy we forced into being a knight'. Do most of his stories start with him trying to rescue someone? 'cause if so, he reminds me of someone from home.
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[ There's a pause, and then he switches modes. ]
Hey. Come on audio. What happened?
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Anomaly. Solomons is gone.
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Damn.
[ It's all he says for a moment, punctuating it with a worried sigh. ]
Where are you? You with anyone?
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No. I'm alone. [ That holds much more significant weight than it used to. He didn't used to mind. ]
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[ He wants to double back, pick Royce up, but they'd made Steph wait too long already. He's not going to try to argue the point with Al. ]
You still coming out this way, or you waiting a few days for Alfie to come back?
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I'm going to wait. Just - linger, I think. [ A beat. ] Maybe help House with something. [ why he's admitting this to Sylar, he doesn't know. ]
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[ Just telling it like it is. And those warning bells go off for sure, hearing that last little bit. ]
House, the guy you hate with a passion? What are you doing for him?
[ He sounds rather skeptical. ]
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He wants to test something in the morgue. I offered to be useful. [ And he can do that, even if it means dying. It'll give it meaning. ]
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[ He is mad, because he doesn't know what the feeling is that's choking up his throat. ]
Tell him no. Tell him you changed your mind, because that's not how it goes.
I did a morgue experiment with Sherlock awhile ago. You want to know how 'useful' we were? You want to know what waits for you there? You're going to see your daughter as an anomaly. It's going to come out of the wall, all twisted and in pain, and it'll eat you. And you're going to learn nothing, and maybe you'll come back.
House is literally insane right now. Don't- don't you dare listen to him.
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There's a long pause, where Royce just breathes harshly on the other side of the line. There's a lot in him that's trying to rise up, but he can't feel anything. It's all numbed out. He should feel horrified that he might see his daughter as anomaly, but he doesn't. He shouldn't want to push this so he feels anything at all, but he sort of does. Don't listen to House. You wouldn't, normally, Royce tells himself. Normally, you'd tell House to go fuck himself.
But he volunteered. And he wants - he thinks he doesn't want to be here anymore, he really doesn't. Maybe he won't come back. Alfie's gone right now. Maybe he won't either. ]
He would tell me to do this whether he was insane or not. Makes no difference.
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That's not the point!
If you die and Alfie comes back, what's the point of that? You're not going to be useful with this. It's not going to be what you want. You'll just come back with a death loss. And if you don't come back, how are you going to see your daughter again?
This is MN Poisoning. It will go away. Stop being such an idiot.
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Nothing matters. [ He mumbles. ] It's hard to tell what does. I just need to hear a reminder.
[ He turns his face into his pillow for a long moment. ]
Alright.
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[ He lets out a heavy sigh, some of his bluster gone. But he's still somewhat suspicious. ]
I'll remind you as many times as you need. Probably way more than that. Just don't go looking for death. This is temporary, all of it.
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You've got to hang on until the depression wears off, just like the mania did. Don't let it control you, right?
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I don't want to travel with anybody close by. [ Period. There's a long pause. Alfie had all the supplies. But - maybe he can do food. He's going in that direction. Don't let the depression control you. Royce's breath catches slightly. ]
The night all of us spent in the same house, not too long ago. With Alphonse. Do you know what I said to Solomons?
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No. What did you say?
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It was a joke. You're allowed to joke, you know. Alfie wouldn't have thought anything of it, other than you trying to lighten things up. Right? So it doesn't mean anything.
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He knew it was a joke. [ Royce agrees, softly. ] It wasn't a prediction of what was going to happen. I know that. It still... it's still in my head.
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And I'm terrible at not dwelling, but if we can get something else shoved in there--
Tell me another story about Hadrian, would you? He sounded like an interesting guy.
[ He won't push if Royce doesn't want to, but it's a little more active than hearing Sylar blather on forever about nothing. ]
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Yeah. Okay. [ Royce thinks, for a moment. ] I still see him. He's a king, now. On the other side of the river, but - I still see him.
He was a knight, once. Or he pretended to be one. He was trying to rescue someone. He got caught, and they forced him into being a knight so that he could kill someone they wanted dead during a joust.
[ That's the super abbreviated version, but he figures he'll get asked questions. ]
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He's a king? Sounds like a big promotion from being 'patsy we forced into being a knight'. Do most of his stories start with him trying to rescue someone? 'cause if so, he reminds me of someone from home.
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I feel like everybody has a self-sacrificing moron in their lives. [ That's - fond, really. Royce loves Hadrian like a brother. ]
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